Due To Feeling Oh So Very Unsafe

Due to feeling oh so very unsafe
I went though a testosterone driven puberty
So now even if I wanted to
I can’t ever pass or blend in
I instead stand out everywhere I go
Meaning my transgenderness isn’t mine to reveal
It’s always visible for everyone to see

But if I’d felt safe enough then
My first puberty would’ve been estrogen driven
And now if I wanted I could
Go choose to pass and blend in
And wouldn’t stand out everywhere I go
Meaning my transgenderness be mine to reveal
Not always visible for everyone to see

I’m Her And She’s Me

Still trying to put together
A relatable image that I
Can see in the mirror
And be comfortable enough to
Go take out and about
But letting people see what
I’ve got it just reminds
Me how far I’ve still
To go to get her
On to my own face

I’m her and she’s me
A person stained by testosterone
Some of what it did
Well it can be undone
But the rest it’s permanent
And my biggest scar
What I’ve got it reminds
Me how far I’ve still
To go to get her
On to my own face

Finally Fuelled By Estrogen

Testosterone is no longer my nemesis
‘Cause its production has been disassembled
And put in the garbage now
I am finally fuelled by estrogen
It comes in little tablets that
I take sublingually twice a day
It is all ‘cause they did
Make my outie into an innie

Testosterone Is My Nemesis

Testosterone is my nemesis
‘Cause my mind says
I’m a female human
And testosterone says well
When I’m through your
Body will say differently
But thankfully I can
Take tablets to keep
Testosterone away and reverse
Some of its effects

Testosterone is my nemesis
‘Cause my mind says
I’m a female human
And testosterone says well
When I’m through your
Body will say differently
But thankfully I can
Have surgery to knock
Testosterone out and correct
Some of its effects

Testosterone is my nemesis