Tag Archives: gender transition

Soon I Will Undergo A Vulvoplasty

I was to have a vaginoplasty
It would have turned my penis
Into my own vulva and vagina
But thanks to five past surgeries
Which left me with no colon
And small intestine with a j-pouch

I can only have a vulvoplasty
Which can only turn my penis
Into my vary own vulva which
Can not ever bring me completeness
But instead it will bring me
Bring me feelings of gender congruence

Ulcerative colitis was the reason for
My five past surgeries weren’t cosmetic
In fact they saved my life
If not for them I wouldn’t
Be able to have my penis
Even turned into my own vulva

Soon I will undergo a vulvoplasty

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That Woman She Is Authentically Me

I’m afraid people will see my
Face and how it gives away
The fact I’m not woman enough

I’m afraid people will see my
Breasts and how they give away
The fact I’m not woman enough

I’m afraid people will hear my
Voice and how it gives away
The fact I’m not woman enough

I’m afraid people will fixate on
My shoulders and how they reveal
The fact I’m not woman enough

But truth is lots of people
They see me as the woman
I’m becoming and meant to be

Every single day I’m becoming more
The woman I’m meant to be
And that woman is authentically me

That woman she is authentically me

I’m More Like The Other Girls

In junior kindergarten I played like
I played like the other girls
Feeding, holding, and rocking a doll
Still unaware that I’d someday soon
Be wishing I’d the needed courage
To say I’m more like them
And I’m less like the boys
‘Cause they’d tell me boys don’t
Play with dolls and the like

In late elementary school I watched
The other girls on the playground
Wishing I’d the needed courage to
Say I’m more like them and
That I’m less like the boys
Yes I should’ve been playing skipping
Instead of playing touch football and
At times walking around all alone
With just my walkman for company

In high school I did watch
I watched the other girls talking
About their changing bodies, futures and
Wishing I’d the needed courage to
Say I’m more like them and
That I’m less like the boys
And that I should be playing
Soccer on the girls team instead
Of being on the boys team

If the needed courage had come
From inside me I’d have developed
More like the other girls and
Not so much like the boys and
My life would be easier and
Not as hard as its been

In junior kindergarten I played like
I played like the other girls
Feeding, holding, and rocking a doll

You Can Be Your Authentic Self

It’s tablets, new hormone and blocker
Coursing through your body causing your
Old hormone to be repressed and
Your outer appearance to begin feminizing
Then it’ll be the bottom surgery
Bottom surgery causing the old hormone
To stop coursing through your body
And tablets, then just new hormone
Coursing through your body causing your
Outer appearance to really feminize
This’ll cause you to be unable
Unable to ever have any children
But you do it all so
You can be your authentic self
Not just on your inside but
Also on your outside as well
As with your future loving wife
And the children you’ll go adopt

This’ll cause you to be unable
Unable to ever have any children

But you do it all so
You can be your authentic self
Not just on your inside but
Also on your outside as well
As with your future loving wife
And the children you’ll go adopt

(She Saw) His Reflection

She saw his reflection staring back at her
It was on her own mirror again today
She uses it to help shave her face
And shaving her face helps her erase him
And he’s the very result of what she
What she did not go do soon enough

She takes her tablets every night after dinner
So she can develop a pair of breasts
She is now going through a second puberty
To distance herself as much as possible from
Him who was a creation put on her
A creation she had a hand in perpetuating

She saw his reflection staring back at her
It was on her own mirror again today…

Go Save Your Life

Nature it made your
Body grow incorrectly so
For you authenticity it
Is not easy it
Is a piece of
Hard work to show
What’s inside your brain
On your own outside
Is scares from when
Nature made your body
Almost go kill you
But doctors and nurses
They saved your life
And they’ll go do
Go do it again
Go save your life
Go save your life

Testosterone Is My Nemesis

Testosterone is my nemesis
‘Cause my mind says
I’m a female human
And testosterone says well
When I’m through your
Body will say differently
But thankfully I can
Take tablets to keep
Testosterone away and reverse
Some of its effects

Testosterone is my nemesis
‘Cause my mind says
I’m a female human
And testosterone says well
When I’m through your
Body will say differently
But thankfully I can
Have surgery to knock
Testosterone out and correct
Some of its effects

Testosterone is my nemesis

(Feelings of) Gender Dysphoria

She uses a mirror
And a razor to
Try and shave her
Face so very smooth
In the hope this’ll
Get rid of the
Product of the testosterone
But a razor can’t
Get rid of the
Hair it comes back
Every day there’s more
This gives her dysphoria

She uses a mirror
And a patch to
Try and get the
Secondary sex features of
A cisgender woman but
The product of her
First puberty it’ll always
Be there serving as
A bad reminder of
What testosterone has done
To her body’s structure
This gives her dysphoria

She tries to go
Out into the wider
World it can be
A scary place especially
When it judges you
Based on rigid standards
Of binary gender expression
Which it firmly polices
This gives her dysphoria
Feelings of gender dysphoria
Bad crippling feelings of
Feelings of gender dysphoria

(I Am Being) More Authentically Me

Here at this stage and age of my life
I am not what I thought I would be
But at least I am not being inauthentic anymore
I am, every day, being more authentically me
But still sometimes, I get self-conscious about my body
When I am like this it messes with my mind
And it leaves me in a state of sadness
A state of self-critical sadness that brings me down
But luckily this state it does not last long
And I get to be again, more authentically me
Here at this stage and age of my life
I am not what I thought I would be
But at least I am not being inauthentic anymore
I am, every day, being more authentically me
I am being more authentically me, more authentically me

(When You Go Correct) The Hormones In Your Body

When you go correct the hormones in your body
There’ll be things you now can’t go do and
They’ll be the things that even before you wouldn’t
You most certainly wouldn’t have wanted to go do

When you go correct the hormones in your body
There’ll be things you now can go do and
They’ll be the things that if before you could’ve
You most certainly would have wanted to go do

You never wanted the ability to grow a beard
But you had it in too many spades full
You wished you could’ve been able to grow breasts
But you lacked that ability so very much completely

When you go correct the hormones in your body
You’ll see on your body, feel in your head
Changes that took a long time coming to you
Changes that took too long to come to you

When you go correct the hormones in your body
You’ll end up laughing and crying so much and
Asking God why I didn’t go do this sooner
But mostly you’ll be thankful you took the plunge