Oh What Should Have I Done

Having kids ain’t in my future
‘Cause I let that ability go
So I’d have more congruence and
Now I love my body more
But also feel bad that I’m
Now just a genetic dead end
But what could have I done
Other then me becoming monetarily rich
Becoming monetarily rich was always really
So very out of my reach
Oh what could have I done
Oh what should have I done

Can’t Go Back To Seven

Can’t go back to seven and
Tell my parents and bother that
I think I’m not a boy

Can’t go back to teenagehood and
Tell my brother’s friend your dream
It’s spot on about my gender

But I can deal with regrets
Go attempt being a happy woman
One with a life worth living

My Journey

Wanna look in my mirror and
See the best of true me
Being reflected in the image that
Is being reflected back at me
That would be so damn sweet
Would be so truly damn sweet

But I gotta keep telling myself
It’s more of a journey then
It ever will be a race
It’ll never ever be a race
‘Cause it’s a long slow crawl
It’s quite a long slow crawl

May never get to a place
One that I can with truth
Say is my destination finally reached
But then there’s my journey and
It’s the best and worst thing
That I’ll ever get to do

I Need You Coming Around

(I Need You Coming Around is simultaneously about a transgender person outwardly manifesting their true self & about them becoming a reflection of God.)

I need you coming around
In my head and heart
You’ve been there all along
But in how I move
I need them to see
You shining so very bright
But it’ll take some time
To make you become visible
Gotta make you become visible
Or I’ll go slip away

I’m Her And She’s Me

Still trying to put together
A relatable image that I
Can see in the mirror
And be comfortable enough to
Go take out and about
But letting people see what
I’ve got it just reminds
Me how far I’ve still
To go to get her
On to my own face

I’m her and she’s me
A person stained by testosterone
Some of what it did
Well it can be undone
But the rest it’s permanent
And my biggest scar
What I’ve got it reminds
Me how far I’ve still
To go to get her
On to my own face

My Replacement Hormones

You’re keeping my anxiety at bay
By making my mood fairly stable
You’re pushing my dark thoughts aside

If only I could get you
To move past bringing me stability
And to bringing me near euphoria

Then I’d be closer to more congruence
As well as to needed healing
And I’m really needing some healing

Announcing, “Feel The Slowness Volume Two”!

I am taking a little pause from posting my poetry so I can bring you an announcement. I am proud to announce that my fifth soundscape album called “Feel The Slowness Volume Two” has dropped via my Bandcamp microsite (https://kirajosiemurphyartist.bandcamp.com/album/feel-the-slowness-volume-two).

And Feel The Slowness Volume Two, an audio album made up of 9 individual soundscapes, is my second volume of soundscapes that aim to get the listener to feel the quality or state that being slow can bring about, hence slowness. It should be mentioned that it is best if these soundscapes are not listened to while operating any power tools, heavy equipment, or wile driving any kind of motorized vehicle as they have been created with the hopes of deeply absorbing the listener and most likely will just leave them in a very slow sate.

Announcing, “Slowness Number Twenty”!

I’m still on my poetry posting brake, I’ll get back to sharing my original poetry soon. But for the moment her is another new soundscape of mine called “Slowness Number Twenty”. It’ll be included, in higher quality, as the sixth track on my fifth album called Feel The Slowness Volume Two which explores the theme of slowness. And Feel The Slowness Volume Two will be available upon relies at: kirajosiemurphyartist.bandcamp.com/album/feel-the-slowness-volume-two. So enjoy having a listen to this soundscape, and then come back here to Lyricsofmylife to explore some of the new original poetry that I’ll be posting in the not to distant future.

Announcing, “Slowness Number Eighteen”!

I’m taking a brake from posting my original poetry, to share here with you a new soundscape of mine called “Slowness Number Eighteen”. It’ll be included, in higher quality, as the fourth track on my fifth album called Feel The Slowness Volume Two which explores the theme of slowness. And Feel The Slowness Volume Two will be available upon relies at: kirajosiemurphyartist.bandcamp.com/album/feel-the-slowness-volume-two. So enjoy having a listen to this soundscape, and then come back here to Lyricsofmylife to explore some of the new original poetry that I’ll be posting in the not to distant future.

Life’s Not Gonna Fly Away

Life’s not gonna fly away
It be coming back today
For us to experience again
Like we did at three

Life be like it was
Before school made it hard
It was filed with curiosity
Again it’ll be like that

And we’ll have a zest
For being the best version
Of ourselves that we can
And that’s an authentic person