I Am Not Running

I am not running
Not going anywhere fast
Instead slowly I am
Recovering to healthy me

To healthy me ‘cause
I have already dealt
With too much shit
In my own life

Recovering to healthy me
So people get to
See the authentic me
At least one time

Announcing, “Feel The Slowness”!

I am taking a momentary pause now from posting my poetry so I can bring you an announcement. I am proud to announce that my long-awaited second soundscape album called “Feel The Slowness” has dropped via my Bandcamp (https://devinmurphyartist.bandcamp.com/album/feel-the-slowness).

And Feel The Slowness is an audio album made up of 14 individual soundscapes which aim to get the listener to feel the quality or state that being slow can bring about, hence slowness. It should be mentioned that some of these soundscapes are intended to bring about in the listener a slower sense of slowness then some of the other soundscapes. It should also be mentioned that it is best if these soundscapes are not listened to while operating any power tools, heavy equipment or wile driving any kind of motorized vehicle as they have been created with the hopes of absorbing and relaxing the listener.

I Live In An Urban Landscape

I live in an urban landscape
Not far from a train track
A freight train track which does run alongside the big ocean harbour

But I don’t see the trains
Or even the transit ferries much
Instead in my room I listen to music ‘cause I’m not well

In future I’ll be so fine
Maybe living in another urban landscape
Near a commuter rail track which isn’t far from a great lake

My family be near to me
With my brother ‘round the corner
And good community embracing me that I can better with my presence

I live in an urban landscape
Not far from a train track
A freight train track which does run alongside the big ocean harbour

One Slow Move At A Time

Our scars they help make us
They help make the wonderful us
But we know if we could’ve avoided them then we’d avoided them

Our scars they help make us
They help make the wonderful us
But if we could’ve not gone through them then we’d not have

Our good times help make us
They help make the wonderful us
But we know if we could’ve had more we’d have had more

Our good times help make us
They help make the wonderful us
But if we could’ve gone through more of them then we’d have

We are who we are and
We can’t change ourselves just go
We can just go and make ourselves oh so much more better

We can just go and make ourselves oh so much more better
Even if it’s just a slow
One slow move at a time

Announcing, “Slowness Number Five”!

I have not had any poetic inspiration for a wile now. But when my poetic inspiration returns to me, I will post the results right here on Lyricsofmylife. Until then, here is another new soundscape of mine called “Slowness Number Five“, which like Slowness Number Eleven will be included, in higher quality, as the fifth track on my upcoming soundscape album called “Feel The Slowness” which explores the theme of slowness. So for the moment enjoy having a listen to this soundscape composition, and when my poetic inspiration returns to me so will the poems here on Lyricsofmylife.

 

Announcing, “Slowness Number Eleven”!

No this is not a new poem of mine. And yes more of my poems will be posted here on Lyricsofmylife in the future. Rather this is a new soundscape of mine called “Slowness Number Eleven“, which will be included, in higher quality, as the eleventh track on my upcoming soundscape album called “Feel The Slowness” which explores the theme of slowness. So for the moment enjoy having a listen to this soundscape composition, and I promise more of my original poems right here on Lyricsofmylife in the not too distant future.

I Am Continuing On

I am so tired of
My vary own inharmonious body
My worry about my future
And how this tires me
And necessitates me continuing on

I am so tired of
All of this continuing on
I can hardly wait for
The make it to come
So I will continue on

I will continue on even
If it is slow sometimes
Even if it necessitates sometimes
Me stopping for a while
So I can have respite

I am so tired of
All of this continuing on
I can hardly wait for
The make it to come
So I will continue on

I am continuing on

What I Need – The Effects of Getting Colitis

Let me tell you ’bout what I need
Sleep not interrupted by an inflated ostomy bag
Sleep not interrupted by a leaking ostomy bag
Operation riding me of ostomy bag and bandage

Let me tell you ’bout what I need
To once again not have a restricted diet
Not that I ever really had unrestricted diet
Never had an unrestricted diet thank to allergies

Oh wish I’d never gotten sick with colitis
Wish on first hospital visit I was admitted
Instead of being told come back wen sicker
‘Cause lateness of admittance meant I needed operation

I can’t get back the part of me
That was called my large intestine or colon
They tuck it out ’cause it gout inflamed
It wouldn’t have if been admitted first time

I want me colon back, my coon back
I want me colon back, my coon back
I want me colon back, my coon back
I can’t have my colon back, colon back

Let me tell you ’bout what I need
Sleep not interrupted by an inflated ostomy bag
Sleep not interrupted by a leaking ostomy bag
Operation riding me of ostomy bag and bandage

This Was Hard For Me To Tell

I have been staying up real late
Trying to tell you who I am
But it is not coming out right
So I will just say it here
Here right in this poem for you
If you have questions do ask them
This is hard for me to tell

This is hard for me to tell
So I will wast no more time
I will just come out with it
I feel that I have no congruence
My sex is different from my gender
I was born with male sex parts
This is hard for me to tell

Well it has not been that easy
Hearing what a man should be, do
I am not a man, never was
And I made a pretty silly boy
Yeah you probably figured it out now
Yeah I identify as a transgender female
This is hard for me to tell

This is hard for me to tell
So I will wast no more time
I will just come out with it
Please use the female pronouns for me
‘Cause I am no ones son but
Rather I am someone’s daughter, someone’s sister
This is hard for me to tell

Yeah you probably figured it out now
Yeah I identify as a transgender female
If you have questions do ask them
‘Cause I would appreciate if you used
The female pronouns for me and made
An effort to understand and except me
This is hard for me to tell

This was hard for me to tell

Go And Be Yourself (This Thing Needs Doing)

Go and be yourself
This is so hard
Harder then it sounds
This thing needs doing

You’ll find the reasons
To not be yourself
And instead go hideaway
Again from the world

Go and be yourself
This is so hard
Harder then it sounds
This thing needs doing

Oh when you tell
Someone can begin loving
Finally your true self
This thing needs doing

Go and be yourself
This is so hard
Harder then it sounds
This thing needs doing

It’ll take only one
Step at a time
To start to be
And to share yourself

Go and be yourself
This is so hard
Harder then it sounds
This thing needs doing

Go and be yourself
This is so hard
Harder then it sounds
This thing needs doing