(She Saw) His Reflection

She saw his reflection staring back at her
It was on her own mirror again today
She uses it to help shave her face
And shaving her face helps her erase him
And he’s the very result of what she
What she did not go do soon enough

She takes her tablets every night after dinner
So she can develop a pair of breasts
She is now going through a second puberty
To distance herself as much as possible from
Him who was a creation put on her
A creation she had a hand in perpetuating

She saw his reflection staring back at her
It was on her own mirror again today…

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Announcing, “Alien Landscapes Volume Two”!

I am taking a little pause from posting my poetry so I can bring you an announcement. I am proud to announce that my fourth soundscape album called “Alien Landscapes Volume Two” has dropped via my Bandcamp microsite (https://devinkiramurphyartist.bandcamp.com/album/alien-landscapes-volume-two).

And Alien Landscapes Volume Two is an audio album made up of 10 individual soundscapes. These soundscapes are my second collection of soundscapes that aim to fully immerse the listener in varying fictional alien environments ranging from the soothing to the highly jarring.

Announcing, “Alien Landscape Number Forty-eight”!

I am taking a brake from posting my original poetry, to share here with you a new soundscape of mine called “Alien Landscape Number Forty-eight”. It will be included, in higher quality, as the sixth track on my upcoming album called Alien Landscapes Volume Two which is my second collection of soundscapes that aim to fully immerse the listener in varying fictional alien environments ranging from the soothing to the highly jarring. Alien Landscapes Volume Two will be available upon relies at: devinkiramurphyartist.bandcamp.com/album/alien-landscapes-volume-two. So enjoy having a listen to this soundscape, and then come back here to Lyricsofmylife to explore some of the new original poetry that I will be posting in the not to distant future.

Go Save Your Life

Nature it made your
Body grow incorrectly so
For you authenticity it
Is not easy it
Is a piece of
Hard work to show
What’s inside your brain
On your own outside
Is scares from when
Nature made your body
Almost go kill you
But doctors and nurses
They saved your life
And they’ll go do
Go do it again
Go save your life
Go save your life

Testosterone Is My Nemesis

Testosterone is my nemesis
‘Cause my mind says
I’m a female human
And testosterone says well
When I’m through your
Body will say differently
But thankfully I can
Take pills to keep
Testosterone away and reverse
Some of its effects

Testosterone is my nemesis
‘Cause my mind says
I’m a female human
And testosterone says well
When I’m through your
Body will say differently
But thankfully I can
Have surgery to knock
Testosterone out and correct
Some of its effects

Testosterone is my nemesis

Poems

Not all poems gotta be long
But some do in order for
Them to say what they need

Not all poems gotta be short
But some do in order for
Them to say only whats necessary

And some poems never get written
‘Cause their authors don’t know how
To express what they gotta say

Announcing, “Various Shades of Blue”!

I am taking a little pause from posting my poetry so I can bring you an announcement. I am proud to announce that my long-awaited third soundscape album called “Various Shades of Blue” has dropped via my Bandcamp microsite (https://devinkiramurphyartist.bandcamp.com/album/various-shades-of-blue).

And Various Shades of Blue is an audio album made up of 12 individual soundscapes which explore many of the feelings that have encompassed my life up to this point (both the good and the bad).

(Feelings of) Gender Dysphoria

She uses a mirror
And a razor to
Try and shave her
Face so very smooth
In the hope this’ll
Get rid of the
Product of the testosterone
But a razor can’t
Get rid of the
Hair it comes back
Every day there’s more
This gives her dysphoria

She uses a mirror
And a patch to
Try and get the
Secondary sex features of
A cisgender woman but
The product of her
First puberty it’ll always
Be there serving as
A bad reminder of
What testosterone has done
To her body’s structure
This gives her dysphoria

She tries to go
Out into the wider
World it can be
A scary place especially
When it judges you
Based on rigid standards
Of binary gender expression
Which it firmly polices
This gives her dysphoria
Feelings of gender dysphoria
Bad crippling feelings of
Feelings of gender dysphoria

(I Am Being) More Authentically Me

Here at this stage and age of my life
I am not what I thought I would be
But at least I am not being inauthentic anymore
I am, every day, being more authentically me
But still sometimes, I get self-conscious about my body
When I am like this it messes with my mind
And it leaves me in a state of sadness
A state of self-critical sadness that brings me down
But luckily this state it does not last long
And I get to be again, more authentically me
Here at this stage and age of my life
I am not what I thought I would be
But at least I am not being inauthentic anymore
I am, every day, being more authentically me
I am being more authentically me, more authentically me

(When You Go Correct) The Hormones In Your Body

When you go correct the hormones in your body
There’ll be things you now can’t go do and
They’ll be the thing that even before you wouldn’t
You most certainly wouldn’t have wanted to go do

When you go correct the hormones in your body
There’ll be things you now can go do and
They’ll be the thing that if before you could’ve
You most certainly would have wanted to go do

You never wanted the ability to grow a beard
But you had it in too many spades full
You wished you could’ve been able to grow breasts
But you lacked that ability so very much completely

When you go correct the hormones in your body
You’ll see on your body, feel in your head
Changes that took a long time coming to you
Changes that took too long to come to you

When you go correct the hormones in your body
You’ll end up laughing and crying so much and
Asking God why I didn’t go do this sooner
But mostly you’ll be thankful you took the plunge