That Woman She Is Authentically Me

I’m afraid people will see my
Face and how it gives away
The fact I’m not woman enough

I’m afraid people will see my
Breasts and how they give away
The fact I’m not woman enough

I’m afraid people will hear my
Voice and how it gives away
The fact I’m not woman enough

I’m afraid people will fixate on
My shoulders and how they reveal
The fact I’m not woman enough

But truth is lots of people
They see me as the woman
I’m becoming and meant to be

Every single day I’m becoming more
The woman I’m meant to be
And that woman is authentically me

That woman she is authentically me

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I’m More Like The Other Girls

In junior kindergarten I played like
I played like the other girls
Feeding, holding, and rocking a doll
Still unaware that I’d someday soon
Be wishing I’d the needed courage
To say I’m more like them
And I’m less like the boys
‘Cause they’d tell me boys don’t
Play with dolls and the like

In late elementary school I watched
The other girls on the playground
Wishing I’d the needed courage to
Say I’m more like them and
That I’m less like the boys
Yes I should’ve been playing skipping
Instead of playing touch football and
At times walking around all alone
With just my walkman for company

In high school I did watch
I watched the other girls talking
About their changing bodies, futures and
Wishing I’d the needed courage to
Say I’m more like them and
That I’m less like the boys
And that I should be playing
Soccer on the girls team instead
Of being on the boys team

If the needed courage had come
From inside me I’d have developed
More like the other girls and
Not so much like the boys and
My life would be easier and
Not as hard as its been

In junior kindergarten I played like
I played like the other girls
Feeding, holding, and rocking a doll

Pooing (For Me It Is Now A Whole Different Experience)

Since my colon was removed, due to ulcerative colitis and
A j-pouch was formed from part of my small intestine
Pooing, for me it is now a whole different experience
One that takes longer then for colon owners, and that
Leaves me exhausted and hungry, and with body dysphoria that
I shove inside me so I can get to tomorrow
Yes an experience that I wish upon no one ever
Since my colon was removed, due to ulcerative colitis and
A j-pouch was formed from part of my small intestine
Pooing, for me it is now a whole different experience

You Can Be Your Authentic Self

It’s tablets, new hormone and blocker
Coursing through your body causing your
Old hormone to be repressed and
Your outer appearance to begin feminizing
Then it’ll be the bottom surgery
Bottom surgery causing the old hormone
To stop coursing through your body
And tablets, then just new hormone
Coursing through your body causing your
Outer appearance to really feminize
This’ll cause you to be unable
Unable to ever have any children
But you do it all so
You can be your authentic self
Not just on your inside but
Also on your outside as well
As with your future loving wife
And the children you’ll go adopt

This’ll cause you to be unable
Unable to ever have any children

But you do it all so
You can be your authentic self
Not just on your inside but
Also on your outside as well
As with your future loving wife
And the children you’ll go adopt

(She Saw) His Reflection

She saw his reflection staring back at her
It was on her own mirror again today
She uses it to help shave her face
And shaving her face helps her erase him
And he’s the very result of what she
What she did not go do soon enough

She takes her tablets every night after dinner
So she can develop a pair of breasts
She is now going through a second puberty
To distance herself as much as possible from
Him who was a creation put on her
A creation she had a hand in perpetuating

She saw his reflection staring back at her
It was on her own mirror again today…

Announcing, “Alien Landscapes Volume Two”!

I am taking a little pause from posting my poetry so I can bring you an announcement. I am proud to announce that my fourth soundscape album called “Alien Landscapes Volume Two” has dropped via my Bandcamp microsite (https://devinkiramurphyartist.bandcamp.com/album/alien-landscapes-volume-two).

And Alien Landscapes Volume Two is an audio album made up of 10 individual soundscapes. These soundscapes are my second collection of soundscapes that aim to fully immerse the listener in varying fictional alien environments ranging from the soothing to the highly jarring.

Announcing, “Alien Landscape Number Forty-eight”!

I am taking a brake from posting my original poetry, to share here with you a new soundscape of mine called “Alien Landscape Number Forty-eight”. It will be included, in higher quality, as the sixth track on my upcoming album called Alien Landscapes Volume Two which is my second collection of soundscapes that aim to fully immerse the listener in varying fictional alien environments ranging from the soothing to the highly jarring. Alien Landscapes Volume Two will be available upon relies at: devinkiramurphyartist.bandcamp.com/album/alien-landscapes-volume-two. So enjoy having a listen to this soundscape, and then come back here to Lyricsofmylife to explore some of the new original poetry that I will be posting in the not to distant future.

Go Save Your Life

Nature it made your
Body grow incorrectly so
For you authenticity it
Is not easy it
Is a piece of
Hard work to show
What’s inside your brain
On your own outside
Is scares from when
Nature made your body
Almost go kill you
But doctors and nurses
They saved your life
And they’ll go do
Go do it again
Go save your life
Go save your life

Testosterone Is My Nemesis

Testosterone is my nemesis
‘Cause my mind says
I’m a female human
And testosterone says well
When I’m through your
Body will say differently
But thankfully I can
Take tablets to keep
Testosterone away and reverse
Some of its effects

Testosterone is my nemesis
‘Cause my mind says
I’m a female human
And testosterone says well
When I’m through your
Body will say differently
But thankfully I can
Have surgery to knock
Testosterone out and correct
Some of its effects

Testosterone is my nemesis

Poems

Not all poems gotta be long
But some do in order for
Them to say what they need

Not all poems gotta be short
But some do in order for
Them to say only whats necessary

And some poems never get written
‘Cause their authors don’t know how
To express what they gotta say