Announcing, “Slowness Number Eleven”!

No this is not a new poem of mine. And yes more of my poems will be posted her on Lyricsofmylife in the future. Rather this is a new soundscape of mine called “Slowness Number Eleven“, which will be included, in higher quality, as the eleventh track on my upcoming soundscape album called “Feel The Slowness” which explores the theme of slowness. So for the moment enjoy having a listen to this soundscape composition, and I promise more of my original poems right here on Lyricsofmylife in the not too distant future.

I Am Continuing On

I am so tired of
My vary own inharmonious body
My worry about my future
And how this tires me
And necessitates me continuing on

I am so tired of
All of this continuing on
I can hardly wait for
The make it to come
So I will continue on

I will continue on even
If it is slow sometimes
Even if it necessitates sometimes
Me stopping for a while
So I can have respite

I am so tired of
All of this continuing on
I can hardly wait for
The make it to come
So I will continue on

I am continuing on

What I Need – The Effects of Getting Colitis

Let me tell you ’bout what I need
Sleep not interrupted by an inflated ostomy bag
Sleep not interrupted by a leaking ostomy bag
Operation riding me of ostomy bag and bandage

Let me tell you ’bout what I need
To once again not have a restricted diet
Not that I ever really had unrestricted diet
Never had an unrestricted diet thank to allergies

Oh wish I’d never gotten sick with colitis
Wish on first hospital visit I was admitted
Instead of being told come back wen sicker
‘Cause lateness of admittance meant I needed operation

I can’t get back the part of me
That was called my large intestine or colon
They tuck it out ’cause it gout inflamed
It wouldn’t have if been admitted first time

I want me colon back, my coon back
I want me colon back, my coon back
I want me colon back, my coon back
I can’t have my colon back, colon back

Let me tell you ’bout what I need
Sleep not interrupted by an inflated ostomy bag
Sleep not interrupted by a leaking ostomy bag
Operation riding me of ostomy bag and bandage

This Was Hard For Me To Tell

I have been staying up real late
Trying to tell you who I am
But it is not coming out right
So I will just say it here
Here right in this poem for you
If you have questions do ask them
This is hard for me to tell

This is hard for me to tell
So I will wast no more time
I will just come out with it
I feel that I have no congruence
My sex is different from my gender
I was born with male sex parts
This is hard for me to tell

Well it has not been that easy
Hearing what a man should be, do
I am not a man, never was
And I made a pretty silly boy
Yeah you probably figured it out now
Yeah I identify as a transgender female
This is hard for me to tell

This is hard for me to tell
So I will wast no more time
I will just come out with it
Please use the female pronouns for me
‘Cause I am no ones son but
Rather I am someone’s daughter, someone’s sister
This is hard for me to tell

Yeah you probably figured it out now
Yeah I identify as a transgender female
If you have questions do ask them
‘Cause I would appreciate if you used
The female pronouns for me and made
An effort to understand and except me
This is hard for me to tell

This was hard for me to tell

Go And Be Yourself (This Thing Needs Doing)

Go and be yourself
This is so hard
Harder then it sounds
This thing needs doing

You’ll find the reasons
To not be yourself
And instead go hideaway
Again from the world

Go and be yourself
This is so hard
Harder then it sounds
This thing needs doing

Oh when you tell
Someone can begin loving
Finally your true self
This thing needs doing

Go and be yourself
This is so hard
Harder then it sounds
This thing needs doing

It’ll take only one
Step at a time
To start to be
And to share yourself

Go and be yourself
This is so hard
Harder then it sounds
This thing needs doing

Go and be yourself
This is so hard
Harder then it sounds
This thing needs doing

You Might Have Called Me Your…

You might have called me
Your son or your bother
Or a crazy guy friend
But I hate to brake
Brake it to you now
I only was your child
Or only was your sibling
Or only your crazy friend
But I wish that I
I could have been your
Your daughter or your sister
Or your crazy female friend
But maybe I can still become
Your daughter or your sister
Or your crazy female friend

Courage Is Slow

Courage is slow
It is go do one thing
But not all at ones rather
Start with one step then another
To take you away from here
And closer to being more whole

In your past
You did not get to be
Seen as you feel you are
Being who you are is crucial
For you to be whole and
Able to give all you have

Courage is slow
But it is crucial if you
Are to make your world better
For you and those around you
Need what you have to give
To them with your own life

In your past
You did not get to be
Seen as you feel you are
Being who you are is crucial

Courage is slow
But with it your past will
Be just that not your future
It looks to be shining brightly

Love Yourself

The hardest thing to do is love yourself
Well after you’ve been pommelled with hurtful words
And not had chances to find out who
Who you need’a become to be truly yourself
Need’a be truly yourself

Oh I’ll try to wake each day now
With love for myself, the kind that’s unshakable
I may falter, have moments of self doubt
Still through it I’ll tray too love myself
With love that’s unshakable

Oh now wen I walk streets
They’ll see that I love God
By how I sparkle and glow

Oh they’ll ask me how I
Did get to be this way
I get to be this way

By being true to myself and
Unafraid to shine it out now
Unafraid to shine it out now

Announcing, “Alien Landscapes”!

I am going to pause for a moment from posting my poems to bring you an announcement. Don’t worry I will be posting new poems of mine right here real soon. What is this announcement? Well I can finally say that my debut album called “Alien Landscapes” will be available for free streaming and free download starting Wednesday September 5 at 9 am Atlantic Daylight Time on my new Bandcamp page. What kind of album is Alien Landscapes? No it is not a poetry album. In fact it is a soundscape album. If you are unfamiliar with what a soundscape is Wiktionary describe it this way:

1. An acoustic environment, a virtual/emotional environment created using sound.
2. A soundscape composition – an electroacoustic musical composition creating a sound portrait of a sound environment.

Alien Landscapes will be made up of 41 tracks. Each track will be an individual soundscape. Theses soundscapes of mine will run for as short as 30 seconds to as long as 13 minutes and 49 seconds. My aim in creating theses soundscapes is to fully immerse the listener in varying fictional alien environments ranging from the soothing to the highly jarring. My hope is you will have a listen and if you like what you here pass it along to your friends and family members. At least to the ones you think will also like it.

Another Day

Go to bed wen your tired
Get up wen your well rested
And with good feelings about today
You can succeed to another day

Sleep in bed having smiled wide
Awake with hope for the future
And with love reciprocated your way
You can succeed to another day

Another day is something to anticipate
Get up to still eager and
Still believing that more goods coming
More goods coming to another day

Go to bed your so tired
Get up wen you’ve gotten rested
And with good feelings for tomorrow
You can succeed to another day

You can succeed to another day