Poems

Not all poems gotta be long
But some do in order for
Them to say what they need

Not all poems gotta be short
But some do in order for
Them to say only whats necessary

And some poems never get written
‘Cause their authors don’t know how
To express what they gotta say

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Announcing, “Various Shades of Blue”!

I am taking a little pause from posting my poetry so I can bring you an announcement. I am proud to announce that my long-awaited third soundscape album called “Various Shades of Blue” has dropped via my Bandcamp microsite (https://devinkiramurphyartist.bandcamp.com/album/various-shades-of-blue).

And Various Shades of Blue is an audio album made up of 12 individual soundscapes which explore many of the feelings that have encompassed my life up to this point (both the good and the bad).

(Feelings of) Gender Dysphoria

She uses a mirror
And a razor to
Try and shave her
Face so very smooth
In the hope this’ll
Get rid of the
Product of the testosterone
But a razor can’t
Get rid of the
Hair it comes back
Every day there’s more
This gives her dysphoria

She uses a mirror
And a patch to
Try and get the
Secondary sex features of
A cisgender woman but
The product of her
First puberty it’ll always
Be there serving as
A bad reminder of
What testosterone has done
To her body’s structure
This gives her dysphoria

She tries to go
Out into the wider
World it can be
A scary place especially
When it judges you
Based on rigid standards
Of binary gender expression
Which it firmly polices
This gives her dysphoria
Feelings of gender dysphoria
Bad crippling feelings of
Feelings of gender dysphoria

(I Am Being) More Authentically Me

Here at this stage and age of my life
I am not what I thought I would be
But at least I am not being inauthentic anymore
I am, every day, being more authentically me
But still sometimes, I get self-conscious about my body
When I am like this it messes with my mind
And it leaves me in a state of sadness
A state of self-critical sadness that brings me down
But luckily this state it does not last long
And I get to be again, more authentically me
Here at this stage and age of my life
I am not what I thought I would be
But at least I am not being inauthentic anymore
I am, every day, being more authentically me
I am being more authentically me, more authentically me

(When You Go Correct) The Hormones In Your Body

When you go correct the hormones in your body
There’ll be things you now can’t go do and
They’ll be the thing that even before you wouldn’t
You most certainly wouldn’t have wanted to go do

When you go correct the hormones in your body
There’ll be things you now can go do and
They’ll be the thing that if before you could’ve
You most certainly would have wanted to go do

You never wanted the ability to grow a beard
But you had it in too many spades full
You wished you could’ve been able to grow breasts
But you lacked that ability so very much completely

When you go correct the hormones in your body
You’ll see on your body, feel in your head
Changes that took a long time coming to you
Changes that took too long to come to you

When you go correct the hormones in your body
You’ll end up laughing and crying so much and
Asking God why I didn’t go do this sooner
But mostly you’ll be thankful you took the plunge

Wanna Be Healthy And Whole (As I Can Ever Be)

I keep slowly over time
Leaving places till I am
Some place new but still
With the baggage from before
I holed myself back from
Letting myself go and blossoming
Into the person I need
To be if I wanna
Be as healthy and whole
As I can ever be

So this time when I
Leave this place I will
Not take my baggage but
Only take my hard earned
Courage to my next destination
Courage to let myself blossom
Into the person I need
To be if I wanna
Be as healthy and whole
As I can ever be

Courage to let myself blossom
Into the person I need
To be if I wanna
Be as healthy and whole
As I can ever be

Wanna be healthy and whole
As I can ever be

A Woman

You were inside of my head
On the day I was born
And since then you have always
Always been inside of my head
Yeah you have always been better
Then what they see on me

I want them to see you
You on the outside of me
‘Cause you are still inside
Inside my head, inside of my head
You have always been inside of
You are inside of my head

You are the woman inside of
Inside of my head is a
A woman who is you and
You are totally me and
I want you on the outside
On the outside of me

You were inside of my head
On the day I was born
And since then you have always
Always been inside of my head
Inside my head, inside of my head
You are inside of my head

Announcing, “Primary”!

I am posing for the moment, from posting my original poetry, to share here with you a new soundscape of mine called “Primary”. It explores the feelings that encompass the initial tentative love of learning that I and many other folks experienced when we where first getting to know the world around us as young children. Primary will be included, in higher quality, as the first track on my upcoming album called Various Shades of Blue which explores many of the feelings that have encompassed my life up to this point (both the good and the bad). Various Shades of Blue will be available, upon release, at: https://devinkiramurphyartist.bandcamp.com/album/v…of-blue. So enjoy having a listen to this soundscape composition, and then come back here to Lyricsofmylife to explore some of the new original poetry that I will be posting in the days to come.

I Don’t Have A Girl

I don’t have a girl
Who is looking back from
The big floor length mirror
Who is looking back from
The embrace of my arms

I don’t have a girl
‘Cause then I never said
Who I truly was inside
‘Cause yet I haven’t said
What I need to hold

I Don’t have a girl
‘Cause I’m still trying to
Be more truly completely me
‘Cause I’m still needing to
Be more truly completely me

When I’m really loving me
I’ll be the girl in
The big floor length mirror
I’ll get a girl in
The embrace of my arms

I don’t have a girl
Who is looking back from
The big floor length mirror
Who is looking back from
The embrace of my arms

You Struggle For Acceptance Into Appropriate Places

Being authentic it takes much work
And being sincere is achieved hardly
But being not yourself is simple

Being not yourself is simple it
Takes none of what you got
But being what your society wants

Take the easy way and you
Are miserable but mostly you don’t
Struggle for acceptance into appropriate places

Being inauthentic it takes no work
And being insincere is achieved easily
But being truly yourself is hard

Being truly yourself is hard it
Takes all you got to fight
What your society wants you being

Take the hard way and you
Are happy some but mostly you
Struggle for acceptance into appropriate places

You struggle for acceptance into appropriate places