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(I’m Much More) Proud of The Person I’m Becoming

As a kid
I never prayed to God to let me wakeup as a girl
But I would’ve if my church had been more ok with Him

As a youth
I never ever tried to came out and say that I’m transgender
But I would’ve if my school had been more ok with differences

As a YA
I finally broke down and came out and said that I’m transgender
‘Cause if I hadn’t I would’ve gone and wasted away by now

I’m still here
‘Cause I’ve taken and am still taking steppes to be more myself
Taking hormones, changing the way I dress, being a better self advocate

And finally I’m
Every day getting so much more proud of the person I’m becoming
I’m much more proud of the person I’m becoming, person I’m becoming

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(And That’s Why) I Never Lived As A Girl

If I could’ve been that little girl I was
At home, at school, and at church then what…
What would’ve my life been like, life been like
Would I’ve been more confident, happy, and more authentic
Would I’ve been more authentic, more truly authentically me
And would people have liked me more ‘cause I…
‘Cause I liked myself oh so very much more
Very much more then having to be a boy
I hated being a boy but I hated being…
I hated being bullied at school so much more
And that’s why I never lived as a girl

My Gender It’s Female

In my new city
I don’t even know
Where the village is
Where the village is

‘Cause in the village
People think gender it’s
All just very preformative
But it’s rather biological

And I don’t even
Wanna ever know where
The village is located
The village is located

‘Cause in the village
People think gender it’s
All a social construct
But it’s rather biological

I’ve know since 7
For sure I’m not
I’m not a boy
I’m not a boy

But if gender was
Actually just very preformative
Then I’d be male
Then I’d be male

I’ve known since 14
For sure I’m definitely
I’m definitely a girl
I’m definitely a girl

But if gender was
Actually a social construct
Then I’d be male
Then I’d be male

But my body including
My mind it’s always
Been telling me that
My gender is female

So at least for
For me my gender
My gender it’s female
My gender it’s female

Soon I Will Undergo A Vulvoplasty

I was to have a vaginoplasty
It would have turned my penis
Into my own vulva and vagina
But thanks to five past surgeries
Which left me with no colon
And small intestine with a j-pouch

I can only have a vulvoplasty
Which can only turn my penis
Into my vary own vulva which
Can not ever bring me completeness
But instead it will bring me
Bring me feelings of gender congruence

Ulcerative colitis was the reason for
My five past surgeries weren’t cosmetic
In fact they saved my life
If not for them I wouldn’t
Be able to have my penis
Even turned into my own vulva

Soon I will undergo a vulvoplasty

That Woman She Is Authentically Me

I’m afraid people will see my
Face and how it gives away
The fact I’m not woman enough

I’m afraid people will see my
Breasts and how they give away
The fact I’m not woman enough

I’m afraid people will hear my
Voice and how it gives away
The fact I’m not woman enough

I’m afraid people will fixate on
My shoulders and how they reveal
The fact I’m not woman enough

But truth is lots of people
They see me as the woman
I’m becoming and meant to be

Every single day I’m becoming more
The woman I’m meant to be
And that woman is authentically me

That woman she is authentically me

I’m More Like The Other Girls

In junior kindergarten I played like
I played like the other girls
Feeding, holding, and rocking a doll
Still unaware that I’d someday soon
Be wishing I’d the needed courage
To say I’m more like them
And I’m less like the boys
‘Cause they’d tell me boys don’t
Play with dolls and the like

In late elementary school I watched
The other girls on the playground
Wishing I’d the needed courage to
Say I’m more like them and
That I’m less like the boys
Yes I should’ve been playing skipping
Instead of playing touch football and
At times walking around all alone
With just my walkman for company

In high school I did watch
I watched the other girls talking
About their changing bodies, futures and
Wishing I’d the needed courage to
Say I’m more like them and
That I’m less like the boys
And that I should be playing
Soccer on the girls team instead
Of being on the boys team

If the needed courage had come
From inside me I’d have developed
More like the other girls and
Not so much like the boys and
My life would be easier and
Not as hard as its been

In junior kindergarten I played like
I played like the other girls
Feeding, holding, and rocking a doll

You Can Be Your Authentic Self

It’s tablets, new hormone and blocker
Coursing through your body causing your
Old hormone to be repressed and
Your outer appearance to begin feminizing
Then it’ll be the bottom surgery
Bottom surgery causing the old hormone
To stop coursing through your body
And tablets, then just new hormone
Coursing through your body causing your
Outer appearance to really feminize
This’ll cause you to be unable
Unable to ever have any children
But you do it all so
You can be your authentic self
Not just on your inside but
Also on your outside as well
As with your future loving wife
And the children you’ll go adopt

This’ll cause you to be unable
Unable to ever have any children

But you do it all so
You can be your authentic self
Not just on your inside but
Also on your outside as well
As with your future loving wife
And the children you’ll go adopt

(She Saw) His Reflection

She saw his reflection staring back at her
It was on her own mirror again today
She uses it to help shave her face
And shaving her face helps her erase him
And he’s the very result of what she
What she did not go do soon enough

She takes her tablets every night after dinner
So she can develop a pair of breasts
She is now going through a second puberty
To distance herself as much as possible from
Him who was a creation put on her
A creation she had a hand in perpetuating

She saw his reflection staring back at her
It was on her own mirror again today…

Go Save Your Life

Nature it made your
Body grow incorrectly so
For you authenticity it
Is not easy it
Is a piece of
Hard work to show
What’s inside your brain
On your own outside
Is scares from when
Nature made your body
Almost go kill you
But doctors and nurses
They saved your life
And they’ll go do
Go do it again
Go save your life
Go save your life

Testosterone Is My Nemesis

Testosterone is my nemesis
‘Cause my mind says
I’m a female human
And testosterone says well
When I’m through your
Body will say differently
But thankfully I can
Take tablets to keep
Testosterone away and reverse
Some of its effects

Testosterone is my nemesis
‘Cause my mind says
I’m a female human
And testosterone says well
When I’m through your
Body will say differently
But thankfully I can
Have surgery to knock
Testosterone out and correct
Some of its effects

Testosterone is my nemesis