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But Eventually I Will Get To Where I Needa Be

I see and feel my physical body changing every day
But some days it seems it is not fast enough
And that still my first puberty it is too visible
But then I notice how my clothes now fit differently
And for a moment I no longer feel so bad

But eventually I will get to where I needa be
And it will take lots and lots of my energy
And yes it will bring me down along the way
But it will also along the way lift me up
And make me feel so much better about being myself

I notice the thoughts in my head changing every day
But some days it seems they are not fast enough
And that still I worry about things like being bullied
But then I realize those are thing from my past
And for a moment I no longer feel so bad

But eventually I will get to where I needa be
And it will take lots and lots of my energy
And yes it will bring me down along the way
But it will also along the way lift me up
And make me feel so much better about being myself

I notice the thoughts in my head changing every day
But some days it seems they are not fast enough
And that still I worry about things like my j-pouch
And I realize that they are not in my past
And for a moment again I do go feel bad

But eventually I will get to where I needa be
And it will take lots and lots of my energy
And yes it will bring me down along the way
But it will also along the way lift me up
And make me feel so much better about being myself

Me Receiving Ample Congruence (Between Mind And Body)

I get all sad and I do cry
When I think of the parts of me
That I can not ever get given back
And the parts I will never be able
Able to grow or have made for me
And it is no longer about having completeness
It is now about me receiving ample congruence
Me receiving ample congruence between mind and body

Soon I Will Undergo A Vulvoplasty

I was to have a vaginoplasty
It would have turned my penis
Into my own vulva and vagina
But thanks to five past surgeries
Which left me with no colon
And small intestine with a j-pouch

I can only have a vulvoplasty
Which can only turn my penis
Into my vary own vulva which
Can not ever bring me completeness
But instead it will bring me
Bring me feelings of gender congruence

Ulcerative colitis was the reason for
My five past surgeries weren’t cosmetic
In fact they saved my life
If not for them I wouldn’t
Be able to have my penis
Even turned into my own vulva

Soon I will undergo a vulvoplasty

Pooing (For Me It Is Now A Whole Different Experience)

Since my colon was removed, due to ulcerative colitis and
A j-pouch was formed from part of my small intestine
Pooing, for me it is now a whole different experience
One that takes longer then for colon owners, and that
Leaves me exhausted and hungry, and with body dysphoria that
I shove inside me so I can get to tomorrow
Yes an experience that I wish upon no one ever
Since my colon was removed, due to ulcerative colitis and
A j-pouch was formed from part of my small intestine
Pooing, for me it is now a whole different experience

You Can Be Your Authentic Self

It’s tablets, new hormone and blocker
Coursing through your body causing your
Old hormone to be repressed and
Your outer appearance to begin feminizing
Then it’ll be the bottom surgery
Bottom surgery causing the old hormone
To stop coursing through your body
And tablets, then just new hormone
Coursing through your body causing your
Outer appearance to really feminize
This’ll cause you to be unable
Unable to ever have any children
But you do it all so
You can be your authentic self
Not just on your inside but
Also on your outside as well
As with your future loving wife
And the children you’ll go adopt

This’ll cause you to be unable
Unable to ever have any children

But you do it all so
You can be your authentic self
Not just on your inside but
Also on your outside as well
As with your future loving wife
And the children you’ll go adopt

Go Save Your Life

Nature it made your
Body grow incorrectly so
For you authenticity it
Is not easy it
Is a piece of
Hard work to show
What’s inside your brain
On your own outside
Is scares from when
Nature made your body
Almost go kill you
But doctors and nurses
They saved your life
And they’ll go do
Go do it again
Go save your life
Go save your life

Testosterone Is My Nemesis

Testosterone is my nemesis
‘Cause my mind says
I’m a female human
And testosterone says well
When I’m through your
Body will say differently
But thankfully I can
Take tablets to keep
Testosterone away and reverse
Some of its effects

Testosterone is my nemesis
‘Cause my mind says
I’m a female human
And testosterone says well
When I’m through your
Body will say differently
But thankfully I can
Have surgery to knock
Testosterone out and correct
Some of its effects

Testosterone is my nemesis