Soon I’ll Undergo A Breast Augmentation

I endured a testosterone driven puberty
One that nearly irrecoverably broke me
But somehow I came out and
Tolled the world I’m transgender female
So now to lessen my dysphoria
Further lessen my crippling gender dysphoria
And bring my more gender congruence
Bring my even more gender congruence
Soon I’ll undergo a breast augmentation

I Want My Intestine Healed

I want my intestine healed
So for the third time
They gave me a temporary
Gave me a temporary stoma
Which I cover with an
Cover with an ostomy bag
To collect all of the
The poo that it excretes
And I change it every
Four days or when needed

I want my intestine healed
So I’ll do all that
So when it’s all better
They’ll go revers my temporary
Go revers my temporary stoma
Meaning I’ll be able to
Able to go from my
Go from my bum again
Wanna go from my bum
Go from my bum again

I Don’t Take Estrogen Just To Alleviate My Gender Dysphoria

I don’t take estrogen just to alleviate my gender dysphoria
I also take it to help increase my gender congruence

I don’t just wanna feel not bad about my gender
I also wanna feel it in a way that’s euphoric

I wanna get to a place where my gender it’s
It’s become one less thing that’s constantly nagging at me

My gender it’s one of the things nagging at me
It’s one of the things that’s constantly nagging at me

I don’t take estrogen just to alleviate my gender dysphoria
I also take it to help increase my gender congruence

Oh What Should Have I Done

Having kids ain’t in my future
‘Cause I let that ability go
So I’d have more congruence and
Now I love my body more
But also feel bad that I’m
Now just a genetic dead end
But what could have I done
Other then me becoming monetarily rich
Becoming monetarily rich was always really
So very out of my reach
Oh what could have I done
Oh what should have I done

I’m Her And She’s Me

Still trying to put together
A relatable image that I
Can see in the mirror
And be comfortable enough to
Go take out and about
But letting people see what
I’ve got it just reminds
Me how far I’ve still
To go to get her
On to my own face

I’m her and she’s me
A person stained by testosterone
Some of what it did
Well it can be undone
But the rest it’s permanent
And my biggest scar
What I’ve got it reminds
Me how far I’ve still
To go to get her
On to my own face

Sometimes I Don’t Trust Myself With Loving Me Fully

Sometimes I don’t trust myself with loving me fully
And that’s why sometimes I just let myself go
But every time I do this I end up
I end up loving myself less

Eat way too much of all the wrong things
Sometimes it’s ‘cause I don’t like how I look
Other times it’s ‘cause I can’t see any purpose
Any purpose to my own life

But in the back of my mind there’s always
A feeling that’s urging me to just carry on
As a result I’ve always gone and carried on
On to an uncertain new day

Sometimes I don’t trust myself with loving me fully
And that’s why sometimes I just let myself go
But every time I do this I end up
I end up loving myself less

Don’t eat enough or any of the right things
Sometimes it’s ‘cause I don’t like how I look
Other times it’s ‘cause I can’t see any purpose
Any purpose to my own life

But in the back of my mind there’s always
A feeling that’s urging me to just carry on
As a result I’ve always gone and carried on
On to an uncertain new day

Sometimes I don’t trust myself with loving me fully
And that’s why sometimes I just let myself go
But every time I do this I end up
I end up loving myself less

Stay up too late and get up to late
Sometimes it’s ‘cause I don’t like how I look
Other times it’s ‘cause I can’t see any purpose
Any purpose to my own life

But in the back of my mind there’s always
A feeling that’s urging my to just carry on
As a result I’ve always gone and carried on
On to an uncertain new day

Despite all the anxiety attacks that I’ve had and
The dark thoughts that’ve come into my own head
I’m still carrying on to an uncertain new day
On to an uncertain new day

The Best Me I Can Be

I’m more broken and less broken
Then when I was a kid
I’ve less completeness and more congruence
Then when I was a kid
I don’t wanna be a kid
Ever hafta be a kid again
‘Cause being a kid was hard
But being an adult is hard
Being an adult is also hard
Just wanna be the best me
The best me I can be
That’s a me that’s over all
The bullying that I’ve received
When I was being a kid
I thought I could’ve gone farther
Gone much farther than I’ve gone
I’ve gone so much farther than
When I was being a kid
I was the obviously different kid
And the invisibly different kid simultaneously
I’ve always been trying to be
Just trying to be the best
The best me I can be
The best me I can be

I’m more broken and less broken
Then when I was a kid
I’ve less completeness and more congruence
Then when I was a kid
I do wanna be a kid
Go and be a kid again
But only with my current ability
To explain and express my gender
‘Cause I’d wanna be the best
The best me I can be
That’s a me that’ll be able
To handle the bullying I’d receive
When I’m being a kid again
I’d get to go farther than
Go much farther than I’ve gone
Wile having to be an adult
I’ve gone way less farther than
When I’m being a kid again
I’ll be the obviously different kid
And never the invisibly different kid
I’d always be trying to be
Just trying to be the best
The best me I can be
The best me I can be

Just trying to be the best
The best me I can be
The best me I can be

Finally Fuelled By Estrogen

Testosterone is no longer my nemesis
‘Cause its production has been disassembled
And put in the garbage now
I am finally fuelled by estrogen
It comes in little tablets that
I take sublingually twice a day
It is all ‘cause they did
Make my outie into an innie

I Never Thought I Should Die

I never thought I should die
‘Cause I never thought I knew
What it was to feel ok

And I want to feel what
It is like to feel ok
Ok in this body of mine

My mind has always seemed ok
Till it got signals from my
My body has never felt ok

So soon I am going under
Under the knife to make some
Of my body finally feel ok

It will hurt first then it
It will start to feel insignificant
Insignificant for the first time ever

This will be some sweet relief
Relief that has been long overdue
Long overdue in coming my way

She’s Your Only Daughter

What you two didn’t
Know before was broken
You will now do
What you can to
Make it more better
For the one you
Love so very much
She’s your only daughter

You didn’t know that
She was your daughter
Till she told you
When she was thirty-two
And thank goodness that
The two of you
Both said that you
Still loved her lots

One of you will
Be there to see
Her off to surgery
And again in recovery
The other will be
Driving her back home
To be there for
Her further needed recovery

What you two didn’t
Know before was broken
You have now done
What you can to
Make it more better
For the one you
Love so very much
She’s your only daughter

She’s your only daughter