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Soon I Will Undergo A Vulvoplasty

I was to have a vaginoplasty
It would have turned my penis
Into my own vulva and vagina
But thanks to five past surgeries
Which left me with no colon
And small intestine with a j-pouch

I can only have a vulvoplasty
Which can only turn my penis
Into my vary own vulva which
Can not ever bring me completeness
But instead it will bring me
Bring me feelings of gender congruence

Ulcerative colitis was the reason for
My five past surgeries weren’t cosmetic
In fact they saved my life
If not for them I wouldn’t
Be able to have my penis
Even turned into my own vulva

Soon I will undergo a vulvoplasty

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You Can Be Your Authentic Self

It’s tablets, new hormone and blocker
Coursing through your body causing your
Old hormone to be repressed and
Your outer appearance to begin feminizing
Then it’ll be the bottom surgery
Bottom surgery causing the old hormone
To stop coursing through your body
And tablets, then just new hormone
Coursing through your body causing your
Outer appearance to really feminize
This’ll cause you to be unable
Unable to ever have any children
But you do it all so
You can be your authentic self
Not just on your inside but
Also on your outside as well
As with your future loving wife
And the children you’ll go adopt

This’ll cause you to be unable
Unable to ever have any children

But you do it all so
You can be your authentic self
Not just on your inside but
Also on your outside as well
As with your future loving wife
And the children you’ll go adopt

(She Saw) His Reflection

She saw his reflection staring back at her
It was on her own mirror again today
She uses it to help shave her face
And shaving her face helps her erase him
And he’s the very result of what she
What she did not go do soon enough

She takes her tablets every night after dinner
So she can develop a pair of breasts
She is now going through a second puberty
To distance herself as much as possible from
Him who was a creation put on her
A creation she had a hand in perpetuating

She saw his reflection staring back at her
It was on her own mirror again today…

(I Am Being) More Authentically Me

Here at this stage and age of my life
I am not what I thought I would be
But at least I am not being inauthentic anymore
I am, every day, being more authentically me
But still sometimes, I get self-conscious about my body
When I am like this it messes with my mind
And it leaves me in a state of sadness
A state of self-critical sadness that brings me down
But luckily this state it does not last long
And I get to be again, more authentically me
Here at this stage and age of my life
I am not what I thought I would be
But at least I am not being inauthentic anymore
I am, every day, being more authentically me
I am being more authentically me, more authentically me

(When You Go Correct) The Hormones In Your Body

When you go correct the hormones in your body
There’ll be things you now can’t go do and
They’ll be the things that even before you wouldn’t
You most certainly wouldn’t have wanted to go do

When you go correct the hormones in your body
There’ll be things you now can go do and
They’ll be the things that if before you could’ve
You most certainly would have wanted to go do

You never wanted the ability to grow a beard
But you had it in too many spades full
You wished you could’ve been able to grow breasts
But you lacked that ability so very much completely

When you go correct the hormones in your body
You’ll see on your body, feel in your head
Changes that took a long time coming to you
Changes that took too long to come to you

When you go correct the hormones in your body
You’ll end up laughing and crying so much and
Asking God why I didn’t go do this sooner
But mostly you’ll be thankful you took the plunge

Wanna Be Healthy And Whole (As I Can Ever Be)

I keep slowly over time
Leaving places till I am
Some place new but still
With the baggage from before
I holed myself back from
Letting myself go and blossoming
Into the person I need
To be if I wanna
Be as healthy and whole
As I can ever be

So this time when I
Leave this place I will
Not take my baggage but
Only take my hard earned
Courage to my next destination
Courage to let myself blossom
Into the person I need
To be if I wanna
Be as healthy and whole
As I can ever be

Courage to let myself blossom
Into the person I need
To be if I wanna
Be as healthy and whole
As I can ever be

Wanna be healthy and whole
As I can ever be

A Woman

You were inside of my head
On the day I was born
And since then you have always
Always been inside of my head
Yeah you have always been better
Then what they see on me

I want them to see you
You on the outside of me
‘Cause you are still inside
Inside my head, inside of my head
You have always been inside of
You are inside of my head

You are the woman inside of
Inside of my head is a
A woman who is you and
You are totally me and
I want you on the outside
On the outside of me

You were inside of my head
On the day I was born
And since then you have always
Always been inside of my head
Inside my head, inside of my head
You are inside of my head

I Don’t Have A Girl

I don’t have a girl
Who is looking back from
The big floor length mirror
Who is looking back from
The embrace of my arms

I don’t have a girl
‘Cause then I never said
Who I truly was inside
‘Cause yet I haven’t said
What I need to hold

I Don’t have a girl
‘Cause I’m still trying to
Be more truly completely me
‘Cause I’m still needing to
Be more truly completely me

When I’m really loving me
I’ll be the girl in
The big floor length mirror
I’ll get a girl in
The embrace of my arms

I don’t have a girl
Who is looking back from
The big floor length mirror
Who is looking back from
The embrace of my arms

You Struggle For Acceptance Into Appropriate Places

Being authentic it takes much work
And being sincere is achieved hardly
But being not yourself is simple

Being not yourself is simple it
Takes none of what you got
But being what your society wants

Take the easy way and you
Are miserable but mostly you don’t
Struggle for acceptance into appropriate places

Being inauthentic it takes no work
And being insincere is achieved easily
But being truly yourself is hard

Being truly yourself is hard it
Takes all you got to fight
What your society wants you being

Take the hard way and you
Are happy some but mostly you
Struggle for acceptance into appropriate places

You struggle for acceptance into appropriate places

Just Human

I’ve bumbled and stumbled
And I’ve cried but
Don’t scream anymore ‘cause
The know-how I’ve lost

It’s all ‘cause I’ve
Not known how to
When it counted most
Be my true self

This makes me less
Than a saint and
Sometimes a bit uncourageous
But mostly just human

More times than not
I’ve been scared but
I’ve been sad and
Upset more than frightened

It’s all ‘cause I’ve
Not known how to
When it counted most
Be my true self

This makes me less
Then a saint and
Sometimes a bit uncourageous
But motley just human

Motley just human, human
Motley just human, human

I try now to
Be my self but
Still I cry thinking
Of what I missed

It’s all ‘cause I’ve
Not known how to
When it counted most
Be my true self

This makes me less
Then a saint and
Sometimes a bit uncourageous
But motley just human