Tag Archives: trans health care

She’s Your Only Daughter

What you two didn’t
Know before was broken
You will now do
What you can to
Make it more better
For the one you
Love so very much
She’s your only daughter

You didn’t know that
She was your daughter
Till she told you
When she was thirty-two
And thank goodness that
The two of you
Both said that you
Still loved her lots

One of you will
Be there to see
Her off to surgery
And again in recovery
The other will be
Driving her back home
To be there for
Her further needed recovery

What you two didn’t
Know before was broken
You have now done
What you can to
Make it more better
For the one you
Love so very much
She’s your only daughter

She’s your only daughter

I’m Not A Mess

Tell me that I
Am on the path
To having congruence with
My gender and sex

Tell me that my
Mind’ll stop its thinking
About the incongruence with
My gender and sex

Tell me that I
Will be more then
Just a total mess
I’m not a mess

I’m just far from
Where I needa be
But I’ll get there
It’ll take only time

And me taking my
HRT tablets every evening
Without thoughts of ever
Going and giving up

Tell me that I
Am on the path
To having congruence with
My gender and sex

Tell me that my
Mind’ll stop its thinking
About the incongruence with
My gender and sex

Tell me that I
Will be more then
Just a total mess
I’m not a mess

I’m not a mess

But Eventually I Will Get To Where I Needa Be

I see and feel my physical body changing every day
But some days it seems it is not fast enough
And that still my first puberty it is too visible
But then I notice how my clothes now fit differently
And for a moment I no longer feel so bad

But eventually I will get to where I needa be
And it will take lots and lots of my energy
And yes it will bring me down along the way
But it will also along the way lift me up
And make me feel so much better about being myself

I notice the thoughts in my head changing every day
But some days it seems they are not fast enough
And that still I worry about things like being bullied
But then I realize those are thing from my past
And for a moment I no longer feel so bad

But eventually I will get to where I needa be
And it will take lots and lots of my energy
And yes it will bring me down along the way
But it will also along the way lift me up
And make me feel so much better about being myself

I notice the thoughts in my head changing every day
But some days it seems they are not fast enough
And that still I worry about things like my j-pouch
And I realize that they are not in my past
And for a moment again I do go feel bad

But eventually I will get to where I needa be
And it will take lots and lots of my energy
And yes it will bring me down along the way
But it will also along the way lift me up
And make me feel so much better about being myself

Me Receiving Ample Congruence (Between Mind And Body)

I get all sad and I do cry
When I think of the parts of me
That I can not ever get given back
And the parts I will never be able
Able to grow or have made for me
And it is no longer about having completeness
It is now about me receiving ample congruence
Me receiving ample congruence between mind and body

I Won’t Even Notice What Is Now Down There

They are going to give me
That chance to never again feel
That distress that I get when
I go put on my underwear
It makes me want to adjust
In hopes of making it disappear

They are going to reshape it
So I can begin to feel
No more distress when I go
I go put on my underwear
It will make me not even
Notice what is now down there

They are going to reshape it
Which will greatly help me continue
The process of being comfortable with
My physical form and with others and
When in unfamiliar group settings without
Noticing what is now down there

They are going to give me
That chance to never again feel
That distress that I get when
I go put on my underwear
It makes me want to adjust
In hopes of making it disappear

They are going to reshape it
So I can begin to feel
No more distress when I go
I go put on my underwear
It will make me not even
Notice what is now down there

They are going to reshape it
Which will greatly help me continue
The process of being comfortable with
My physical form and more congruent
With my mind’s thoughts which won’t
Notice what is now down there

I Won’t even notice what is now down there

Soon I Will Undergo A Vulvoplasty

I was to have a vaginoplasty
It would have turned my penis
Into my own vulva and vagina
But thanks to five past surgeries
Which left me with no colon
And small intestine with a j-pouch

I can only have a vulvoplasty
Which can only turn my penis
Into my vary own vulva which
Can not ever bring me completeness
But instead it will bring me
Bring me feelings of gender congruence

Ulcerative colitis was the reason for
My five past surgeries weren’t cosmetic
In fact they saved my life
If not for them I wouldn’t
Be able to have my penis
Even turned into my own vulva

Soon I will undergo a vulvoplasty

You Can Be Your Authentic Self

It’s tablets, new hormone and blocker
Coursing through your body causing your
Old hormone to be repressed and
Your outer appearance to begin feminizing
Then it’ll be the bottom surgery
Bottom surgery causing the old hormone
To stop coursing through your body
And tablets, then just new hormone
Coursing through your body causing your
Outer appearance to really feminize
This’ll cause you to be unable
Unable to ever have any children
But you do it all so
You can be your authentic self
Not just on your inside but
Also on your outside as well
As with your future loving wife
And the children you’ll go adopt

This’ll cause you to be unable
Unable to ever have any children

But you do it all so
You can be your authentic self
Not just on your inside but
Also on your outside as well
As with your future loving wife
And the children you’ll go adopt

(She Saw) His Reflection

She saw his reflection staring back at her
It was on her own mirror again today
She uses it to help shave her face
And shaving her face helps her erase him
And he’s the very result of what she
What she did not go do soon enough

She takes her tablets every night after dinner
So she can develop a pair of breasts
She is now going through a second puberty
To distance herself as much as possible from
Him who was a creation put on her
A creation she had a hand in perpetuating

She saw his reflection staring back at her
It was on her own mirror again today…

Go Save Your Life

Nature it made your
Body grow incorrectly so
For you authenticity it
Is not easy it
Is a piece of
Hard work to show
What’s inside your brain
On your own outside
Is scares from when
Nature made your body
Almost go kill you
But doctors and nurses
They saved your life
And they’ll go do
Go do it again
Go save your life
Go save your life

(When You Go Correct) The Hormones In Your Body

When you go correct the hormones in your body
There’ll be things you now can’t go do and
They’ll be the things that even before you wouldn’t
You most certainly wouldn’t have wanted to go do

When you go correct the hormones in your body
There’ll be things you now can go do and
They’ll be the things that if before you could’ve
You most certainly would have wanted to go do

You never wanted the ability to grow a beard
But you had it in too many spades full
You wished you could’ve been able to grow breasts
But you lacked that ability so very much completely

When you go correct the hormones in your body
You’ll see on your body, feel in your head
Changes that took a long time coming to you
Changes that took too long to come to you

When you go correct the hormones in your body
You’ll end up laughing and crying so much and
Asking God why I didn’t go do this sooner
But mostly you’ll be thankful you took the plunge