Category Archives: poems

I Don’t Have A Girl

I don’t have a girl
Who is looking back from
The big floor length mirror
Who is looking back from
The embrace of my arms

I don’t have a girl
‘Cause then I never said
Who I truly was inside
‘Cause yet I haven’t said
What I need to hold

I Don’t have a girl
‘Cause I’m still trying to
Be more truly completely me
‘Cause I’m still needing to
Be more truly completely me

When I’m really loving me
I’ll be the girl in
The big floor length mirror
I’ll get a girl in
The embrace of my arms

I don’t have a girl
Who is looking back from
The big floor length mirror
Who is looking back from
The embrace of my arms

Advertisements

You Struggle For Acceptance Into Appropriate Places

Being authentic it takes much work
And being sincere is achieved hardly?
But being not yourself is simple

Being not yourself is simple it
Takes none of what you got
But being what your society wants

Take the easy way and you
Are miserable but mostly you don’t
Struggle for acceptance into appropriate places

Being inauthentic it takes no work
And being insincere is easily achieved
But being truly yourself is hard

Being truly yourself is hard it
Takes all you got to fight
What your society wants you being

Take the hard way and you
Are happy some but mostly you
Struggle for acceptance into appropriate places

You struggle for acceptance into appropriate places

Just Human

I’ve bumbled and stumbled
And I’ve cried but
Don’t scream anymore ‘cause
The know-how I’ve lost

It’s all ‘cause I’ve
Not known how to
When it counted most
Be my true self

This makes me less
Than a saint and
Sometimes a bit uncourageous
But mostly just human

More times than not
I’ve been scared but
I’ve been sad and
Upset more than frightened

It’s all ‘cause I’ve
Not known how to
When it counted most
Be my true self

This makes me less
Then a saint and
Sometimes a bit uncourageous
But motley just human

Motley just human, human
Motley just human, human

I try now to
Be my self but
Still I cry thinking
Of what I missed

It’s all ‘cause I’ve
Not known how to
When it counted most
Be my true self

This makes me less
Then a saint and
Sometimes a bit uncourageous
But motley just human

I’ll Be Ok Again Come Someday (‘Cause’ve All You Do)

I don’t wanna cry
I don’t wanna hurt
I don’t wanna feel this pain
Just want you to fix this
You can’t fix this

So I’ll stumble on
With all your support
With all your much needed help
It’ll give me hope that I’ll
Be ok again someday

I’ll be ok again
Ok again someday thanks
Thanks to all your big support
And all your much needed help
Your much needed help

I don’t wanna cry
I don’t wanna hurt
I don’t wanna feel this pain
I’ll be ok again come someday
‘Cause’ve all you do

I Am Not Running

I am not running
Not going anywhere fast
Instead slowly I am
Recovering to healthy me

To healthy me ‘cause
I have already dealt
With too much shit
In my own life

Recovering to healthy me
So people get to
See the authentic me
At least one time

I Live In An Urban Landscape

I live in an urban landscape
Not far from a train track
A freight train track which does run alongside the big ocean harbour

But I don’t see the trains
Or even the transit ferries much
Instead in my room I listen to music ‘cause I’m not well

In future I’ll be so fine
Maybe living in another urban landscape
Near a commuter rail track which isn’t far from a great lake

My family be near to me
With my brother ‘round the corner
And good community embracing me that I can better with my presence

I live in an urban landscape
Not far from a train track
A freight train track which does run alongside the big ocean harbour

One Slow Move At A Time

Our scars they help make us
They help make the wonderful us
But we know if we could’ve avoided them then we’d avoided them

Our scars they help make us
They help make the wonderful us
But if we could’ve not gone through them then we’d not have

Our good times help make us
They help make the wonderful us
But we know if we could’ve had more we’d have had more

Our good times help make us
They help make the wonderful us
But if we could’ve gone through more of them then we’d have

We are who we are and
We can’t change ourselves just go
We can just go and make ourselves oh so much more better

We can just go and make ourselves oh so much more better
Even if it’s just a slow
One slow move at a time

I Am Continuing On

I am so tired of
My vary own inharmonious body
My worry about my future
And how this tires me
And necessitates me continuing on

I am so tired of
All of this continuing on
I can hardly wait for
The make it to come
So I will continue on

I will continue on even
If it is slow sometimes
Even if it necessitates sometimes
Me stopping for a while
So I can have respite

I am so tired of
All of this continuing on
I can hardly wait for
The make it to come
So I will continue on

I am continuing on

What I Need – The Effects of Getting Colitis

Let me tell you ’bout what I need
Sleep not interrupted by an inflated ostomy bag
Sleep not interrupted by a leaking ostomy bag
Operation riding me of ostomy bag and bandage

Let me tell you ’bout what I need
To once again not have a restricted diet
Not that I ever really had unrestricted diet
Never had an unrestricted diet thank to allergies

Oh wish I’d never gotten sick with colitis
Wish on first hospital visit I was admitted
Instead of being told come back wen sicker
‘Cause lateness of admittance meant I needed operation

I can’t get back the part of me
That was called my large intestine or colon
They tuck it out ’cause it gout inflamed
It wouldn’t have if been admitted first time

I want me colon back, my colon back
I want me colon back, my colon back
I want me colon back, my colon back
I can’t have my colon back, colon back

Let me tell you ’bout what I need
Sleep not interrupted by an inflated ostomy bag
Sleep not interrupted by a leaking ostomy bag
Operation riding me of ostomy bag and bandage

This Was Hard For Me To Tell

I have been staying up real late
Trying to tell you who I am
But it is not coming out right
So I will just say it here
Here right in this poem for you
If you have questions do ask them
This is hard for me to tell

This is hard for me to tell
So I will wast no more time
I will just come out with it
I feel that I have no congruence
My sex is different from my gender
I was born with male sex parts
This is hard for me to tell

Well it has not been that easy
Hearing what a man should be, do
I am not a man, never was
And I made a pretty silly boy
Yeah you probably figured it out now
Yeah I identify as a transgender female
This is hard for me to tell

This is hard for me to tell
So I will wast no more time
I will just come out with it
Please use the female pronouns for me
‘Cause I am no ones son but
Rather I am someone’s daughter, someone’s sister
This is hard for me to tell

Yeah you probably figured it out now
Yeah I identify as a transgender female
If you have questions do ask them
‘Cause I would appreciate if you used
The female pronouns for me and made
An effort to understand and except me
This is hard for me to tell

This was hard for me to tell